difficult times yet happiness still exists

It's so difficult to forgive. To trust someone and treat him like a brother and be treated unfairly in return.

Now I know what some mean when they say "family must come first" or "there's nothing like family".

Yet I do have friends who are practically like family to me still. Recent events have just taught me to be more discriminating in people I will welcome into my life as family.

I know I have to forgive, just like Jesus forgives me left and right, over and over again.

I cannot say "why can't this person do this kind thing when I extended so much kindness to him plenty of times" for I am reminded by God that I did those things because of my love and fear of God, not of my own will or kindness of my sole heart.

For I am selfish by nature too, very much so.

Thank you, Jesus, for teaching me love even through pain.

Plus being betrayed by a friend sure makes me appreciate the beautiful people in my life all the more, that's for sure! =)